I’m not a complicated person – I’m not fussy. I’m not difficult.
I’m not a brat.
I’m not picky.
Not at all. Take me to a football game, I’m happy. Take me to a boring play, I’m happy.
But my body isn’t. My body is complicated. My body is fussy. My body is difficult. My body is a brat. My body is picky. Very picky.
And it’s pretty frustrating when all I really wanna do is enjoy a new Manhattan restaurant or go hiking up the Rocky Mountains.
But it’s not that easy.
Because, well I’m just pretty gosh darn complicated.
I have hypothyroidism.
I have Leaky Gut.
I have heavy metal toxicity.
I have an IGA deficiency.
I have candida.
I am allergic to gluten, dairy, soy, corn and numerous fruits as well as certain oils and sugar.
And now, the latest…
Last month, I was told…
I have Lyme Disease.
My life is complicated. That’s simply all I can say at this point.
Dating is hard.
Explaining myself is hard.
Trying to figure out why my body hates me is hard.
But I just stay positive and keep my head up high.
Because there’s a reason for all of this…
Yes, I believe there is a reason that I am going through all of this. There is a reason for why my body is complicated. There’s a reason I spend 10 hours of my day just taking care of myself like an infant – detoxing, healing, soothing and nurturing my body – when all it does is react back to me in a negative way.
I’m honestly hoping this is the end of my diagnoses. I am hoping my treatment for Lyme Disease makes everything better. I am praying that I will soon be normal. Feel normal.
To be able to go out to eat. To be able to go out on a nice date. To be able to worry a lot less about how I’m going to feel the rest of the day, the week, the month, the year.
I’m really hoping.
And I don’t ask for a lot.
Truly, I don’t.
But I’m asking Santa for an early Christmas gift this year.
Because I just can’t take another diagnosis.
I’ve received countless letters from all of you these past few years and I love having all of you in my life. I’m sharing all of this with you today because I care deeply for each of you – even though I don’t know many of you personally. I care about your health and your well-being and that’s why I started this website – to help you and to heal myself on this journey that I have been on the past 7 years.
I’ve learned so much and I’ve healed many parts of my body. But the healing has just begun.
I’ve started treatment for my Lyme Disease and I’m not giving up. I’m eager to learn about this disease, to heal myself and to help all of you and everyone else who’s bodies are attacking them. I’ve learned that my Lyme Disease has been in my body for almost 10 years and has been trapped within the biofilm of my stomach. I find it amazing that I never had a tick bite, a rash or a bulls-eye yet years later, this disease has wreaked havoc on my body in so many ways.
This is all very new to me and I am on a biofilm protocol to kill off the pathogens and heal once and for all. Seems like the reason I haven’t completely healed 100% is because of this biofilm and how it’s not letting me heal. I will be sharing my Lyme and biofilm treatment with all of you soon but for right now I will not be sharing any information and I hope you understand that. I welcome your comments but please know I will not be sharing information until I learn more so that I can help all of you. I will be creating pages on my website dedicated to biofilm and Lyme to help others who need the support.
In the past, my Lyme Disease results were all NEGATIVE. I’ve learned that it takes going to the best of the best labs in the country and spending thousands of dollars out of pocket to get a true diagnosis. Just another sad issue about our whole medical profession. Just to think that this Lyme Disease is what was causing me to be sick all along and now after 10 years of suffering… I’m just learning this.
The saddest part is that I had to figure this all out on my own. No doctors ever suspected this or found this until I researched and dug and dug and dug for more information and learned what tests I should be doing.
I haven’t yet shared this Lyme Disease diagnosis with anyone other than my parents, my sister and two of my best friends but I felt that I need to tell all of you. Because I am an honest person. I’m not complicated. I’m not fussy. I’m not picky. I’m just me.
Little me. Healing and living.
And never, ever giving up.
- 2 brown rice cakes
- 3 Tbsp. well-stirred creamy almond butter
- 1/4 tsp. coconut flakes
- 2 Tbsp. dried cranberries
- 1 Tbsp. finely chopped fresh basil
- 2 tsp. pumpkin seeds
- 1/4 tsp. fresh lemon zest
Lay rice cakes on a flat surface. Spread almond butter onto each rice cake using a knife. Top with remaining ingredients.