One Year Ago Today…
I was in the hospital.
On Morphine. Steroids. Painkillers.
I was on disability from my job with chronic swelling, c-diff colitis, myositis in my leg muscles and more stomach pain and body aches than I can even begin to explain.
It was pretty bad.
Actually it was really bad.
And after about 1,000 tests, lots of painkillers and steroids – you would think it knocked some sense into those Western medicine doctors when they kicked me out of the hospital telling me my insurance wouldn’t cover me anymore. Why? Well, they said there was nothing else wrong with me once the colitis healed.
And so, with that my parents walked me out the door.
Kinda like 2 years ago this month when my mother, aunt and I went out to Mayo Clinic in Minnesota for an entire week of tests, bone marrow biopsies, etc. The whole work up. Yep, the whole 9 yards.
Or so they thought.
And so they led us believe nothing was really wrong with me and I was just ‘crazy’ and had to deal with the pain, the 30 pounds of leg swelling in my legs everyday by 3PM, the brain fog, the night sweats, the bone aching like I was a 90 year old woman.
“What was wrong with me?” I kept asking myself “I’m eating kale and avocados everyday- why am I suffering but everyone is telling me there is nothing wrong?”
And then I took a plunge. Yep. I branched out to a doctor that didn’t take my insurance but who did take the time to listen, to care, to cure. An amazing medical doctor specializing in Integrative Medicine. A doctor who answered Every Email that I wrote, returned Every Call that I made to him, took the time out of his day or night to answer All of My Questions.
I was baffled- no one- not even Mayo Clinic or Hospital for Special Surgery or any other hospital or doctor in 6 long years Ever, Ever took this time to care.
And here I am- Only 1 year later.
And I honestly have tears in my eyes while I write this.
It’s been one hell of a year. Let me tell you. Extensive mercury filling removal, chelation, detox, more dietary restrictions…
But ya know what?
It only made me stronger.
Because guess what?
I feel good.
That’s right- my heavy metals have significantly decreased in my body.
I’m a happy camper. Yes of course I have my days when my ‘Leaky Gut’ acts up and my belly bothers me, but I am staying strong, staying positive.
Because I’m an entrepreneur now. That’s right: I’m out to change the way people eat and help them find hope without a prescription drug.
Well, that’s simple, silly.
I love helping people and want them to see how anyone can turn their life upside down (or Up) however you wanna look at it.
And I’m gunna do just that. I already am.
One person at a time.
And ya know what?
It feels pretty darn good.
Actually it feels fabulous.
Seven years in corporate America and I never really felt fulfilled at the end of the day. Even though I was working for high-end corporate brands and had a great job- it just wasn’t me- and ya know what? At one point I thought I had failed because I wasn’t excelling in my corporate jobs.
I think the only positive feedback I ever received was, “Why are you always so happy?” “Why do you smile so much?” “Are you ever in a bad mood?”
And I actually let these comments get to me- along with my chronic 4 years of leg swelling and other silent symptoms.
But, that’s all behind me.
And there’s a new world ahead.
Because this lil’ Manhattan gal is gunna make some changes out there.
I already am.
And like my mother said to me last year as I lay in the hospital bed, “Everything will be okay in the End. If it’s not okay, it’s not the End.”
I have this quote on my fridge to remind me everyday how important life is.
Below it, I have another quote my best friend, Keri sent me when I was in the hospital “Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.”
Again, So true.
These quotes make me smile.
It’s the little things in life.
The very little things- that make me happy.
O and I almost forgot a really big thing (my health), my two AMAZING parents, sister and friends.
Happy April n’ Happy Monday.
Yea for Spring!
To all of you, my readers and my clients- I love you all and so happy to have you in my life- here’s to your success in 2012.
I am truly honored to have been nominated in the Top 40 Under 40 in the Gluten-Free Community. I would love your vote.